this morning, esther left for canada le... though we are not able to send her off at the airport, but cheryl and me wake up at 5 plus just to call her and talk to her... haha... hw sweet we are rite... i oso think so... =) 3 weeks... will see her again in 3 weeks time... hope everything goes well for her over ther... haha...

recently have been thinking alot... sometimes when is time for a r/s to end, you have to end it... coz no matter hw much u try to save it or hw much u love tat person, it isnt e main point anymore... leaving each other is a better solution for both...

it has been 2 weeks le... no calls no msg from him... think both of us alrdy noe wats going on le... im numb le... no longer have feelings no longer have any hopes le... i have been trained by wats his personality is... train til wat am i now... and its time for us to let go... in e past, i will be very very upset but now i dunno where e determination come from and im very clear abt wat i wan to do or say... no turning point le... its end means end... wonder when shld i sae?

ps: im happier w/o him!

anyway, gt another thing im thinking... "if a r/s there are so many factors tat u will nid to consider and mind it so much, den tis r/s definitely cannot work out.."<< tis is wat my nick is... is a pysco factor tat makes u hesitate and hard to overcome... tats wat i think... but my fren sae as long as you are happy with each other, automatically u wun even bother wat obstacles that you guys are facing... tats true oso... but e love power is tat so powerful??? i do not noe... haha... jus wondering... =)

recently, im kind of weird... my mind my words my action... damn stupid lah... daoesnt match at all...wat cause tis disruption??? its very irriating... my illness coming back again... haha... guess no one will uds tis part... but its ok... =)
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