its just 4 mth ago... happened just sudden and ended so sudden as well... been through alot... everything seems to have your shadow... vanhouten raisin that you like to eat... e deep and ncie dimple that you have... the chow chow you first bought for me... the 2nd chow chow we jackpot... walking in the flood in vietnam... started from the dainam trip... first and second roses you gave it to me... our first movie the IP man... monopoly that we have played... the yong chun quan... stomach pain you will ask me to eat bo zai yun... the first ramily burger we made together... the first time you make burger for me... our first bowling game in vietnam... our first trip to genting... our first and last basketball game... the last time you say"love you dear/bb"... the last time you say "ben ben de"... the first hat you bought for me... the first present you give me on my bdae... you say you will bring me eat good food... bugis trip for your ny clothes... the time we work together in song be... the time we walk the long path back to our apartment... the tapioca you like to eat i bought it just on wednesday... you give me a kiss and you are happy... the first time i cook cooling dessert for you and you drank it all... etc, etc, etc...........

4 mths to me as if 4 years... is short but wonderful... there are just so much of things in my mind in my heart... how can i just say let go then let go? so much of misery... a reason which i cant accept it but made me let go... no longer have a chance to hear what i used to hear... no longer have a person keep singing oldies to me... no longer have you joking ard me... how much time that i need to take to heal? tears may stop but heart still bleeding badly... even kotex oso cannot absorb the blood... you say no worries anything we can work together... but this time round you work alone...

PS: bb i really put in all my effort and love but why it ended just like a sudden bomb... im badly hurt and full of scars... i still love you though... let me be your guardian angel ba... sadness pass... happiness has to come... im alright... hope im alright... haha...
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