that friday night i met up with ssb... wanna have a talk with him... yes, after 2 weeks... people may be wondering why i still need to talk to him since everything has ended... tats becoz i have alot of unclear doubts... moving on with all these doubts, i would regret... i dun pin hope on him anymore... becox i finally uds what kind of person is him... he is decisive person, guess nothing would change his decision ba... so no point i still wan him back... yes, its a tough thing for me... guess harder than any projects in school... haha...

yes, everything is possible to him... including breaking up with me... what else more can i say? have to agree with the statement ma... afterall i wouldnt say the talk did clear my doubts but either i would not say it help me to end my dream... should have wake up long ago... but i realise i didnt... till that night i saw him again... i didnt cry throughout e talk hor... but jus tears in eyes... looking at him, i feel that his working attitue and the way he talk that makes me admire alot... i like that kind of character... very charming to me... haha... but of cox he would not be the one that im going to admire anymore... another feeling i have got is he is jus one small table away from me... he is someone i love and treasure very much... but no use, he is getting further away from me... he is no more my pillar anymore, not someone whom i think he is the closer to me anymore.. yes, very upset... but still i din cry...

the style he do, i could not adapt... but was forced to accept his style of doing... i was pissed off... but what can i do? is alrdy a fact... hmmm... let it off ba... let him off ba... let myself off ba... 4 months of memories between us would always stay, has a big part in my heart... really alot sia... hmmm... that friday night, thx to esther and cheryl acc me after the talk... i requested for a big cry out... perhaps i should say cry for the last time ba... cher says: yokie, stars is always there in the sky... i looked at her and paused a while... i laughed out... finally i get her meaning no wonder want birng me go see stars... LOL... esther says: yokie, think in a positive way, you are one step closer to your true love... haha... true oso!!!

met up with ah sheng, wei, ran, xiong, cl... they keep me acc while i crying... haha... for two breakups, they acc me... very funny also... non stop till 3am? haha... casue my eyes to be swollen like hell plus i only slept for 3 hrs... ytd i work 14 hrs man... i think im really superwoman sia.. haha... cry finish le, tire finish le... start anew ba...
move on! move on! move on! move on! move on! move on! move on! move on! move on!

i will..

be back the happy yokie in my friends eyes...

*twist*

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