its time!

as usual, i read his blog again... this time round i've read sth which i've expected long ago... talking about his fren's crush, talking about his own crush... i do not know who is the she that he refering to, but somehow i can feel how she can affect boon... again, he said he do not wish to repeat the past mistakes again in rushing into a r/s... before we start, he wrote this in his blog too... just like the paragraph he wrote for me, he wrote for the girl... almost the same content... almost the same situation of having fun together, of talking about everything in no man land... is the same... to him, what he did to me was a mistake... before being with me, he knew what he did to his ex was a mistake... and now still saying the same old thing to this girl of his.. when? when is the real time that he can stop realising he is making a mistake? rushing into r/s is not what he want but again and again, he repeated himself... so his feeling to me was a crush, and thats not love... he could simply say he made a mistake in rushing into r/s with me, but what about me? if just because of his own mistake and bring me all this unhappiness den why he started it? sometimes i really dunno if i hate him for treating me like this, but hating a person was much more tough for me... i would say he is a bastard he is a jerk, but somehow i dun hate him... neither will i love him anymore... everything ended... he is jus one of my past... i may be thinking of this past but i will never live in this past of me and him anymore...

there is something i wanna say to him, but guess he would not like to hear that from me... what i wanna say to him is: boon, stop making that mistake of urs again and again... i dun wish that girl to be like me or any of ur ex... you two may create happiness but if you cant stop making the mistake, unhappiness will definitely over happiness... at the point of reading ur blog, i feel like wishing you all the best... really hope you could find your true love... is love... not crush ok? even if your love wun last, it doesnt matter rite? cox you can stop giving urself an excuse telling ppl you make a mistake again and telling urself and the girl, your love to her was genuine and never a crush only... gd luck... =)
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